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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Oh, and......

I am actually a bit nervous being at home without H. When I drive them to the airpot at 4am, I was sort of stunned to discover that I am still very afraid of being out in the dark. Really afraid, cold sweat and praying kind of afraid.
The closer I got to the airport, knowing I was going to have to drive back alone, I got more and more sick inside. I prayed " please don't let the car die, please don't let me get stuck in the dark alone, please don't let anyone kill me...." I felt dizzy and nauseous, and mad that I still feel like this. I was mad until I realised that everyone has fears, some people are afraid of spiders, balloons, heights, needles.... I am afraid of the dark, outside. I love the dark INSIDE, but having to go out, even to put bins out, run to the car, any reason. I just hate it. I know all kinds of evil and bad are waiting in the shadows for me. So what? I shall simply keep doing what I do, stay in, or go out with someone. Hardly life shattering is it?
I don't like going to bed with the H man, if Jordan is at home I feel safer but if he is working in the kitchens at work, he sleeps there, he wasn't at home last night. I think he's here tonight though. Phew.
I have done my ironing. Big deal you may say, it is indeed I shall reply. I have been tripping over my ever growing iroing pile for 10 days, it was unavoidable tonight, I could scarecely see over it and unless we want to sport that horrible fashion called the crinkle look, I had no choice, we have no clothes left. My back aches now in a satsified and smug sort of way. I can walk into the kitchen and see the sides ( hoorah, for now free of cakes and ketchup sachets) My tumble drier seems to be non functioning though, it is cold...sooooo coooooooold. I need my drier , I need to have a hot drier to dry clothes. No line outside here. I truly don't want to have to go the launderette route. It's a newish drier too, bought it in January so it should still work, bad drier DRY MY CLOTHES ( I say 'my' but mean 'their', much more of their stuff than my stuff) don't go thinking that if the car got away with it you will too, I shall send you back from whence you came, with a flea in your ear if you think you can pack up and die. Mark my words.
I might well be afraid of the dark but a tumble drier holds no fear for me.


Blogger LosingSanity said...

I am afraid of the dark to a degree, as well. I don't like to even go down my hall when it is dark..i will turn the hall light on first. So, you aren't alone!

1:59 am  
Blogger Julie Q said...

My dryer will not heat if the vent is blocked. And it gets blocked once and a while. It's easy to clean the lint out and worth a try. :) Be sure and go outside to where it vents out and make sure it is all clear.

I don't like the dark either. It bothers me more than it used to as well.

1:35 pm  
Blogger Julie Julie Bo Boolie said...

Aww I'd come and keep you company if it wasn't for the darn ocean :(

5:11 pm  
Blogger Jessica said...

I'm afraid of the dark, as well. I have to sleep w/a light on in my kitchen (just the over -the-stove-light), in case I have to get up in the m iddle of the night. I hate going to the gym at night, but that's the only time I can go. When the sun even starts dipping in the evening, I draw my shades.


7:11 pm  
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7:15 pm  
Blogger Jessica said...

that last comment was Mercy.
Sorry. :-)

7:16 pm  

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