And then your heart just bursts and spreads glitter and fluffy stuff all over the universe.

As a mother, more often than not, we will feel that we have done it wrong and oh we are making so many mistakes and what should we DOOOOOOOOOOOOO?
Then we do what we do and hope and pray that it will be alright in the end.
To see if it is alright, you know, in the end we have to be patient. And then a bit more patient.
Along the way we will be joyful and heartbroken, terrified and reassured. One emotion after the other.
I am riding on a high at the moment, still a little tentatively but with each passing day with more confidence.
The most splendid and heart warming part of watching Sophie at the moment is the way she and H are interacting with each other. Any interaction at all between these two is nothing short of miraculous but every day I am seeing such sweet and gentle moments.
Sophie has a card that she can charge and use in the works cafeteria, I have given her some money but as it is tight around here ( what's new?) I suggest that she take lunch and when she gets paid she can charge the card. The other morning I told her that I didn't have any money and she was fine with that, as she walked past H to go to work, without saying anything he handed her some money, he asks her about work and is genuinely interested, all these things lift her spirits and make her stronger.
She started work this morning at 8.30 and got home at 7.30 this evening having done a couple of hours overtime. She ate her dinner and then said
"Hey! I don't have to go to work tomorrow, you guys don't have school..how about we have a sleepover in MY room?"
Those little boys just about peed themselves, Isaac was heard to say "Oh this will be the best day of my whole life!"
Eli told her that he loved her.
They made beds on the floor ( where Sophie sleeps anyway for now, she hasn't slept in a bed for 18 months, I can't wait to get one in there for her!)
They chose DVDs they made popcorn drinks, got breakfast bars and we haven't seen them since 8pm.
H and I had a glorious quiet evening and even managed to curl up on the sofa together.
Dan is coming tonight for 2 days, can you hear my mummy heart sing? Watch out for the fluffy stuff and glitter because I think it could burst any minute.


( she needs a dresser too, that pile of clothes is where her clothes live right now, on the floor with her pillows!)