Boston, are YOU ready for this?

So, Boston it is, for real, in June. I bought my ticket today, I felt a little nervous as I said to the lady in Thompson's travel agency " Yep, go for that one" It does seem an extraordinary thing to do, except life has to be filled with exceptional and extraordinary things or it's not worth doing.
When I made the decision to do this, having told myself that I was not going to allow the fear of all things to paralyse me anymore, I believed that I meant it but thought I would somehow manage to talk myself out of it. Had it not been for 2 of the others girls who will be there, I think I may well have found a reason not to go, they made it impossible for me to back out and here I am, with the actual ticket in my bedside drawer ( but where is my passport? That's a great question, haven't seen that box since we moved, hmmmmm)
Am I still afraid of flying? Oh yes the flight is 7.5 hours long and I have always hit the LET ME OUT I CAN'T DO IT AGAIN moment after 8 hours, I can take the medicine given to me to get me on the plane at Christmas and this time I do not have all the added fears of that holiday ( what if the plane starts to fail and I have to look at 3 little boys and know we are going to crash? Also, what if America doesn't let H come back? ) then, when we are there I won't have to drive to Sacramento to spend time with my Mother in Law, in fact I think there may only be small worries this time.

Things to worry about in Boston;

Will I snore?? Yes, I always snore.

Will I look fat in photographs? Yes, I am fat, how could I look skinny in photographs? However I am sure that in all the pictures I will be laughing and I have yet to see a bad photograph of anyone when they are truly laughing.

Will I pee when I laugh? Why no. I have pelvic floor muscles to brag about, even after 6 children. I shall probably point this out when others, with less impressive bladder holding skills are shamed into depends and hysterical shame.

Will I be able to carry home everything I buy at Target and HERE? Well, I am only there for 4 days, friday I suspect will be spent resting and waiting for others to arrive, then 2 days of shopping and eating and laughing, also sight seeing. Maybe a little bit of shopping on monday before I come home. I think I will manage to keep it down to a level acceptable to the airline I am flying with. If not I will have to make one of the other girls fly back with me to help carry it all.

Are there any other worries? Well, of course, this is me we're talking about but what matters here is that I am going to do it and it is going to wonderful. The thought of this trip has boosted my morale and has changed many things for me. This is a marvellous and exciting thing indeed.