back in the saddle again.

Hoorah....something has clicked back into place, since the rotten thursday I had the worst 'bad' feeling, me, just felt bad inside and couldn't shake it. What that meant, of course, is the enthusiasm for the eating well has been SO HARD! I have stuck with it, but grumpily. Needless to say that made me feel more useless....etc etc etc. Hooray. The cloud has lifted. I feel good again, ready to show 'em what I am made of. This is the first tme EVER I have hit a low and stuck with it,not given in to the black voice that tells me I am useless, can't do it, should give up, won't be able to reach that goal. I DID it!! I feel even better than before about it...does this mean that I will do it? that soon, I will post pictures like Julie's showing a huge difference, a smiling me? A new and happy me? I CAN'T WAIT!!!
H was so great the other night, not saying the right thing, just the very fact that he told me how he feels and although this whole depression and councilling deal is almost impossible for him to understand, ( he says things like " so you really want to be happy? Well be happy then" a typical aspergers type thing to say!!) he wants to do whatever I need to feel that release. Good man.
So, tomorrow I am back, the blob blog will be written and we will be back on regular turf again. whoopdedoo.
Oh AND one of my old friends, who is funny and fun and has been to the states and come home has moved HERE! RIGHT HERE!! I can go and see her and she can come here and we can go out and do fun things. Hoorah again. And again.